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Wanted: Rundown Waterfront Motel for Depressing Experience

By | October 7, 2016

As you all know, I’m all about the “wallowing in depression”. Carole’s going to visit her parents in Ohio for Thanksgiving (Oakwood, a suburb of Dayton, FWIW) and I have no plans. I found myself pondering today, “What would be the most depressing place to spend Thanksgiving by oneself?” I don’t mean “in solitary confinement in a Supermax”… Read More »

Blanket Apology To The Human Race (and Most Higher Orders of Animal Life, Excepting Only the Canada Goose)

By | August 11, 2016

I spend every day of my life wanting to apologize to everyone I know on social media and quite a few of the people that I know in person. I believe that most people who know me either: think nothing at all about me, or, think I’m an annoying, attention-hungry loser I’m not worried about apologizing to people… Read More »

Drowning

By | May 16, 2016

Though this is not going to come as a newsflash to anyone who knows me, I’ve been suffering from severe depression for a few years now. Of late I’ve been so depressed that at the end of each working day I’ve simply gone home (or to the hotel, when I’m traveling for work), eaten something, and then gotten… Read More »

Missing Carole

By | September 15, 2013

I travel for work — some years, in excess of 75% of my weeknights are spent in hotels far from home. I’ve been doing this for 15 years and counting, and Carole and I have always managed to make it work. Carole doesn’t mind me being gone; it means she can watch TV and play a lot of… Read More »

Missing my mother

By | September 4, 2013

My mother, Dora Furr, would have been 84 today, had she lived to see the day. She passed away two years and four days ago, somewhere in the evening of August 31, 2011, although on her death certificate they recorded it as September 1. (I’m still not sure why.) She died of “diseases of the elderly”, which basically… Read More »

Life Is What Happens When You’re Making Other Plans

By | August 20, 2013

What do you do when your life has, basically, gone to hell and you can’t talk about it with anyone because either they won’t believe you when you get down to the specifics, or because you feel compelled to protect the privacy of one of the people who is making your life hell? Yes, I know I can… Read More »

The Shape I’m In

By | May 30, 2013

If you haven’t listened to “The Shape I’m In” by the Band recently, go do that. Then come back and read the rest of this. Today was a bad day. Not because of anything that went wrong at work, because nothing did. (I’m in Aurora, Colorado, doing training at one of our customers. The classes today went fine.… Read More »

What is love? Part 1

By | February 14, 2013

I am spending Valentine’s Day far from my sweetie. This isn’t as unusual as it might be for some people. I work as a technical trainer for a very large Fortune 500 company and it’s often the case that I’m on a business trip on Valentine’s Day. Sometimes I send flowers, sometimes I send chocolates, and in any… Read More »