Tag Archives: depression

I’m the worst person in the world

I am mentally ill. My mental illness takes the form of severe depression mixed with PTSD. My depression is partly due to heredity and partly due to environment. It’s the nature of the thing that it’s sometimes hard to draw … Continue reading

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Dammit, Ennui

Today is a bright sunny, chilly day with the remnants of this week’s snowstorm all around outside serving as a reminder that although spring may technically┬ástart tomorrow, astronomically speaking, Vermont usually has other ideas. Carole is out at a meeting … Continue reading

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Wanted: Rundown Waterfront Motel for Depressing Experience

As you all know, I’m all about the “wallowing in depression”. Carole’s going to visit her parents in Ohio for Thanksgiving (Oakwood, a suburb of Dayton, FWIW) and I have no plans. I found myself pondering today, “What would be … Continue reading

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Spectacularly bad

Depression is rarely boring, despite what one might expect. I woke up Sunday morning (having slept in while Carole went off to church) with a full-on the-world-is-ending I-am-utterly-alone panic attack. I literally felt as though I was drowning, gasping for … Continue reading

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Drowning

Though this is not going to come as a newsflash to anyone who knows me, I’ve been suffering from severe depression for a few years now. Of late I’ve been so depressed that at the end of each working day … Continue reading

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Ennui

You know you’re depressed and down and out of good ideas when you actually stop and contemplate mailing a letter to the Unabomber, Theodore Kaczynski, to ask him what he thinks of Donald Trump. And then think “… and how … Continue reading

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Cats

Hi, all. I’m in New York City this week doing training. Carole is back home starting her third week of unemployment. I didn’t post at the time, because it was a hard and troubling time, but yeah, Carole lost the … Continue reading

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